Saala Mein to Sahb Bann Gaya (Part-I)

Okay...

So, first I have my Advisory and Consultancy class. And then later in the day, I just have one Corporate Risk Management class. Then I have an hour’s gap between the two, in which I would have my lunch and grab my today’s issue of ET.

With all these thoughts occupying my mind,I headed towards the first floor.

As everyone I know was preparing for the last trimester of MBA, I was preparing for something totally different which included my plans for the day. I kept thinking that what the hell will I do today and in what order. While climbing up the stairs, my eyes met a pair of eyes looking towards me with a big smile. Those eyes reminded me of a day; not long back that too at this same spot.

And my mind suddenly travelled back in time to recall the event when I last noticed her eyes all glittery with excitement.

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What!!!

She got placed!! That’s a great news man.

So, here it begins; my fellow summer intern got a job in an awesome organization. It seems just like a couple of days back when we used to walk back to the metro station together and I used to pull her leg like anything. And here she is today, standing in front of me with her big twinkling eyes and the biggest smile I had ever seen on her face. A very bright future filled with a lot of new opportunities is now waiting for her.

The more I look towards her, the more nostalgic I get. Remembering that blue wall with a bright name of my company on it,those white marbles that guided me from the main gate to my desk and that brown desk/work station (the name I like more) waiting for me with a label of ‘Zu-Zu’ on it. All those memories are still so fresh in my mind that it feels like I will be going back  to the office in a day or two.

Aaahh..

I just want to go back in time and stay there. But the very next moment my mind gets filled with the thoughts of growing, learning more, exploring new things and getting out of my cocoon. After seeing her, I just wanted to submerge with this feeling of nostalgia once more.

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"So, where exactly is the NSIC building?"

I was drenched in sweat and still was literally running in excitement because it was the first day of my  summer internship. I finally got into one of the leading Financial Institutions of US to explore more domains of finance. Being from a science background, it was very important for me to get into finance company because I had just discovered my inclination towards the subject. On the way to my office,I  saw this man walking towards the shade probably to save himself from the heat when the mercury was boiling at 45’C. I ran towards him and asked about my desired address. He directed me towards the building and even offered me his bottle of water. I plugged in my earphones and started walking towards my destination.

While walking towards my office, various thoughts occupied my mind.

" Am I aptly dressed?"

"How will I introduce myself?"

"Will I be able to perform and give my best?"

I shooed away these thoughts and started focussing on the time which was running out of my hands. Finally I saw the logo of my company which was enough to fill my mind again with various apprehensions. Without even realising it, my speed automatically increased. I was nervous but excited, tired but energetic. 

I asked the security guard to further guide me to the main building and on being asked I told him that I am a summer intern. He asked me to wait and I sat in the lobby. That was the first time I saw the same pair of eyes I was talking about.

“Hi. I am Ritika. We’re from the same institute. Do you know me?”

I saw her face and tried to search in my mental directory. Although I did not recognise her in the first place but by not letting her know this, I warmly greeted her.

“Of course I know you. Hi, I am Rupish.”

We were in the middle of a random conversation when the guard called out her name and handed over a phone to her. She came back to me and said that she has been asked to come in and I have been called on the line. I had a brief conversation with a lady who turned out to be my mentor’s boss. She asked me to join Ritika and start the work. I entered the office and started searching for Ritika. I saw her in the third last row sitting next to some guy (who turned out to be one of my mentors). I walked towards them and introduced myself to him.

“Hello Sir. Good afternoon. I am Rupish Saldi. I am also an intern and have been asked to join Ritika for further proceedings.”

“Hi. I am Naval. I am not your line manager but I work along with him. He is not in town and is stuck with some client. Until he is back, I will be there to guide and help you out.”

To be continued...

When I see myself in you

Just walked down to my washroom and looked into the mirror. They say that a mirror shows you who you are and what you are. It is said to show you the real "you".

But today when I walked in front of the mirror, I didn't see me. I gazed on that image I saw in front of me. It was of a twenty-twenty two years old guy with untrimmed beard, threadbare spectacles, tensed face trying to find out answers to many unsolved questions in mind. I kept looking and saw an image of another person in the glasses of those worn out spectacles. That guy was even more shabbily dressed and tensed than the former. But what surprised me was that within that image I saw another image of a person in the pupil of the eyes. This guy seemed to be dejected by the world, unaided, isolated and deserted from anyone around.

Suddenly, I just lost my focussed approach which was treading down the image line. I stepped back and touched myself. I realised I was none of those guys. I had a smile on my face, cool beard look and up-to-date spectacles to match my personality.

Then who were those guys?

From where did all of them approach in my image?

What did it signify?

Was it actually that? No, it can't be. It was long ago. It just can't follow me till now.

Then what was it?

Am I sure it was not what I suspect it was?

Was it really because of today's incident?

Was it.............

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Pooja: "It's getting late. Let's leave soon. It will take us an hour to reach home"
Kunal: "Sure. Even I was planning to leave as soon as possible. Let me just check whether I have done all the formalities required for the day."
Pooja: "Do everything quickly."

After sometime.

Pooja: "Are you done with everything. You know how everything is. Let's leave."
Kunal: "Ya. Let's go."

They went to the car and without wasting any time Kunal got on to the driving seat and was as usual excited to drive both of them back. Kunal just enjoyed driving after a hectic day at office. While going back home, they always used to listen to music and side-by-side had a regular chit-chat sessions.
Pooja used to discuss all the office politics and "who-said-what" stuff. Kunal used to filter things out. He used to act as if he is listening to all that stuff but like a typical guy, he used to shut the doors of his cerebrum and allowed it to enjoy some fun neighbor talk with the cerebellum. But something just caught his attention. Out of nowhere, Pooja started discussing her personal life. There was a little unrest in her life and the reason behind it was a breakup with her boyfriend. He did listen to everything but while listening his mind travelled time and distance.

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Aanya: " I just can't do it. We can never be together from now on."

Kunal: " Why are you punishing me? I am sure everything will be alright one day. At least give it a genuine chance."

Aanya: "Sorry but my family will also not support it. Its not possible."

Kunal: "We have spent so much time together. It means nothing to you now?"

Aanya: "Bye."

This one episode left Kunal shattered. His self-confidence and personality went for the butcher's knife and were dead for now.He just tried to assemble the broken pieces and connect the dots to understand what went wrong.

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Her tears brought him back to senses and he looked into her watery and crystal clear eyes. He was shocked to see himself in her eyes, depressed and lying alone on the ground, his eyes opened wide and hands trembling. Before he realised, he was gasping for fresh air and sweating in a well air conditioned car. He looked at her again and this time, he just saw the pain in her eyes so hugged her tight.

After sometime, she soothed down and was feeling better. But his mind was stuck behind. He was thinking again and again that why did he see himself in her eyes. He has got nothing to do with her boyfriend, her relationship or her breakup but he just felt connected as if he was involved in all this. It was like he was going through a breakup again. He could feel that pain and started directing his emotions in a very controlled and constructive manner in order to put her back and keep her moving.

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In life, sometimes you get a chance to see yourself in others. At times, you can just feel what others might be feeling. These are the desperate times when you just want to take things in your hand and make them move as per your command. These are the times when you feel that you know the situation, you know the loopholes, you know the potholes and you can just drive the other person away from this mess. It becomes frustrating to see the other person still doing what you think would be wrong to do in such a situation.

You try to pull him/her back, shout at her/him or if you are really connected with him/her that you will even try to just come in between the path. But what you forget is that you learnt the right way only after falling down again and again. You know what is right today only because you had enough trouble getting out of the pit you were digging unknowingly for yourself. And few things can only be learnt if you learn them on your own, without any external help. For example, when a butterfly comes out of its cocoon, it is said to be a very painful experience for the butterfly. But without that experience, butterfly will fail to live a healthy life ahead. In a very similar way, some life experiences are important to be learnt on your own. No matter how many times a person tells you what is right and what is not right for you, you need to fall down, get hurt and learn to get up and keep walking.

That's Life dude!!

Selflessness!! What's that?

Usually I write when I have gathered enough questions in my mind and I just want to release all of them. It is funny that when I pour my heart out, I somehow start with a quest to find answers to all these questions. And usually I come up with a solution as well.

But

This time it's different.

This time I just have my question ready. I am in the process of looking for an answer because what I see is not what I think and what I think is not what the world wants to see.

Sometimes, you get stuck in front of a wall. You know that there is a door out there but it camouflages in such a brilliant manner that you just keep finding the way out. Because of this interesting "human nature", you keep struggling.

You find     You search     You run     You knock     You cry     You give up!!!

And if you don't want to give up, you have a heavy price to pay for that. I don't know why, but I am ready to pay that price because I believe that that price would lead me somewhere.

And what the hell.

Let's go and see that what is ahead. Sometimes it's terrifying while at times it is exciting. At times your heart beat is just inaudible and at times your heart is beating out load.

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What is this word

"Selfish"

And what does it actually mean?

Oh!!

Don't get surprised. Just answer my question dear friend.

Ok

Now what is

"Selfless" 

I know what are you thinking.

"Are you kidding me bro"

Have some patience.

I hope you are ready with both the answers.

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I noticed this a few days back that "being selfless" is just a word. It is of no use and a selfless person can only exist in imaginary world, if at all it exists.

It is just a word to satisfy and calm down your soul that you are good as you think of others. Hence, SELFLESS!!

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

But if we think practically, is there anything like "selfless"?

In this competitive world, people just think about themselves- their happiness, their life, their near and dear ones, their sorrows etc. No one has any time to think about others. And don't just get me started on the working of NGOs. Everyone is after paper money or plastic money (least preferred as tax department is always active for their selfish interests). So, everyone is running after something for themselves only.

But I was told that there are such individuals who think about others as well. There are such people who care for others rather than their own happiness. I thought that even I was one of them. I had this mirage image in front of me that there are such people who think about others.

But a stimulus broke this mirage and I started thinking about the concept of selflessness.

I realized that when you do something good for others, something that virtually is unrelated to your wellbeing, it never is. Even if you do work in an NGO for good of others, what you get is self-peace and self-satisfaction.

These words have a prefix "SELF" which is enough of evidence to prove that to which degree it is a selfless act. Then people say that it is at least better than those who use others for some work.

But is it??

Because your so-called-selfless act is providing you inner peace while your so-called-selfish act just helps to get your benefit out of others. As mature being we all know that what provides long term benefits.

So,

HELPING OTHERS OR USING OTHERS???????

Mind-Think Some More

Mind Boggles

Hi folks!!
I am back with my blogging stuff.
How are you all?
I hope its all good at your end because today I need some help. Last few days have not been a cake walk for me. A very weird and frightening thought is stuck in my mind.
What if I am in pain and left alone in darkness?
What if I keep shouting for some help and there is no one to listen to me?

More than all this, the thought that has been troubling me the most is what if my closest people become reason for my pain!
Inflicting more pain on a painful soul is something that takes it beyond the level of getting repaired. A person feels the weakest when his/her own people cause immeasurable pain. As they are your "own people", most probably that won't be intentional. Sometimes, it is but usually it is not. Even if it is an unintentional attack, you are the one who suffers. You suffer heartbreak and darkness over shadows all the wonderland feelings.
Own people are those whose happiness and sadness affects you. They are those special people in your life who, as per you, are always meant to stay happy. Any pain afflicted on them can bring you on your knees. In Hindi, they are called अपने, in French they are called Propre Peuple but irrespective of the spelling and language of this word, pain is the same and so is the worry for their well-being.

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Today was a big and terrifying day for my parents. But for me, it was kind off an adventure(even though I knew the repercussions of a positive result).
Yeah, positive..
For a change, the word positive was not that a positive thing.
I went in with the headphones pushed inside my auditory canals and Adele was trying to sooth me down using some fire in the rain.

Me:- Ma'am, here is the prescription slip of the doctor. I am here to get few tests done.
Attendant:- You?? Do you want to get ECG and chest X-ray conducted??
Me:- Yes ma'am. Kindly guide me further.

She took me to a lab assistant who again was amazed to see a 20 years old getting such serious tests done. He took me in and got both the tests done. He handed over the reports to a doctor. He looked at me and then at the reports.
I was thinking to myself that maybe he will come up with some killer inference like myocardial infarction or some other word justifying angina pectoris.
He was quite happy to tell me that all the reports look normal to him.I thanked him, took my reports and returned to my Adele.
No joyous feeling, no happiness and no relief.
My parents hugged me tightly to express their happiness and took a breath of relief.
                           
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Near and dear ones are always there to support you especially during a rough phase of yours. But what if they are causing this rough patch?
Who would you run to?
Where would you seek to bring solace to your restless soul?
When I thought of such a situation, my mind boggled. It brought chill shocks to my spine and left my arrector pili muscles working with full energy.
These shocks took away my happiness of getting the negative reports.
And yeah, sometimes negative is nice.
I felt that my entire life is dependent on few pillars out of which the pillar named "ME" is not strong enough to support and sustain a life in my body for long enough. I got a little afraid of white- the color of tranquility. It reminded me of a junior of mine who always said," Bhaiya, I am afraid of many things but my biggest fear is white color." But then the reason for our fear of the same color is different.
He is afraid of white because he doesn't want his body to be disposed off without leaving a mark that would remain after him. He wants to do something incredible so that the world always remembers his name. And in my case I was afraid of the connection between "MY WORLD" and "WHITE COLOR". I don't ever want the two of them to merge together and leave me all alone.
Due to this depressing thought, my mind kept boggling and I thought of two main things

• My life without my loved ones
• My life with my loved ones but against me

My mind is still lost in these insane thoughts and maybe won't find solace if I keep thinking. The only way to keep it under my control is to remember what Lord Krishna has quoted in Shrimad Bhagavat Gita

"our senses our like horses and our mind is that charioteer who is responsible to control the movement of those horses"

Life- Changing Definition of its own

Is life really that an easy task to survive as described in books and even in my previous blogs?
This is the question in my mind that I want to answer myself. I dont know that how am I going to find out about this and whether in the end i will reach to some conclusion or not. But one thing is for sure, I will learn a lot while assembling my thoughts.

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DREAMS BREAK IN THIS GAME

Life is like a game with just two outcomes for ever turn. One is you will succeed and other one is quiet obvious choice,you will lose everything.

Every big turn in life involves great risks. Putting in the terms of economic, big profits involves big risks. If a person dreams to achieve big things in life, he/she needs to risk a whole lot of things for that.

Risks may look good and interesting in movies and add commercials. But in actual life they are usually not accompanied with a bright ending. Movie names "Pursuit of Happiness", makes everyone learn two things about life

1) Life would be very harsh and nothing can be achieved without giving yourself unbearable mental pain. Those who will somehow get along, will be termed as WINNERS and those who will fall anywhere in between, will be forgotten in the crowd.

2) Hard work will pay back in future. Sooner or later, one will achieve the feat. Hope of achieving something big always keeps a person on. It gives you strength to fight back but with the risk of taking away everything if you will take it as an extra load  over your shoulders.

SPEND NIGHTS DOUBTING YOUR CALIBER

During the journey of life, one will experience hundreds of sleepless nights. Hundreds of nights when you will scratch your head hard but wont get any jini to ask for your wish and grant it easily. Most these sleepless nights would revolve around a QUESTION MARK.

A simple sign of English language that is used to indicate ambiguity about something. This sign would put a big label of "Whats Next". Its not at all easy to slip away these nights because the empty cup of the following morning is already filled up to the brim by the cup of fighting and conflicting thoughts.

But is it really a case of concern?

Would the life be really as exciting and adventurous as it is for a fighter who is about to fight with an unknown opponent?

For me, all this is really something that keeps the heat level up. But even I hate it when it gets on to my nerves. Even I feel that it is not easy when you are on the lower side of the coin and no one can see you.

So, are these sleepless nights really worth?

I guess I need to think some more....

LOOSING THE NEAR AND DEAR ONES

Separation can take different meanings during different situations.

Sometimes separation is between two people due to some underline dispute whereas sometimes due to final and inescapable route.

Both of these break a person from within,especially the second one. Everyone has experienced and no one wants to experience it further. Still, everyone has to keep fighting with this as its not under one's will. Its by god's choice. No one can undo this loss. 

But the undeniable fact is that its is the rule of this game. One day you will win the game whatsoever you do to bring innumerable losses on your end. On one fine day, people will say that now he/she will REST IN PEACE.

Because tensions and struggle has ended.

I may sound little insane while I say all this but truth is inevitable. And maybe ineffable for me to explain it.

But that's the way every story is destined to end. No story can just keep on going on and on.

When I read the second chit out of the this box, it is labeled as "dispute". Seems to be a lighter thing to discuss than the previous topic but it holds such knots that can't be loosen up easily.

When two people are saying north and south pole, they end up with a fight. It may involve any two people, sharing any bond with each other.

Today, I experienced one with my one of the best friends. It turned ugly and in the end we decided to stop crossing each other's path.

But it left me with a loose end.

Friends matter so much in ones life especially when you start sharing your personal stuff with them. Sometimes you fight, you tease, you laugh and then hug. Whatever happens in life, a friend is always there saying

Bro, I am still here. I will never let you walk alone.

But what when he/she, leaves you and decides to walk away?

Who should be blamed, friend or you?

SOMETIMES INTROSPECTION LEAVES YOU FEELING GREY

When you look back and see that what all happened through out, life never seems to be a clean and easy journey. It never looks that you have reached at this destination very easily. Difficulties and problems are the two main ideas that pop up into ones mind and changes the conditions of phase. Instead of using 17, a person over burdens face muscles by using 43.
It always seems like a fight in which you have suffered bruises all over the body. You are like Leonidas with not even 299 more with you, fighting against the enormous army of Xerses. All alone out there.
All this never feels right, at least not the way you planed it to be. Its like a mosquito who is sucking life out of you and giving you a slow and painful end.


Maybe many of you will feel that my earlier philosophies about the life were like a "Wonderland journey". And now I am onto something practical.

Everyone goes through a tough phase. Everyone has to shed tears on the loss of someone close or on an ineluctable defeat of your dream.These tough phases may break great wall of China and even great wall of India(used for Indian cricketer Rahul Dravid). What I mean is that handling stress of loosing something big, of putting someone else on the danger side and of getting nothing out of everything is scary. Everyone feels scared not to win.
Legends like Sachin Tendulkar, Mike Tyson, Dhyan Chand, Michael Jackson and so on and so forth have faced such chills going down their spine. Sachin also has sleepless nights when he underwent a surgery for tennis elbow and was unable to even lift a cricket bat. Michael Jackson also had fear to keep performing up to that "near perfection level".

Life is always changing definitions. Its always taking different turns and round abouts on the roller coaster. Sometimes its on the highest point of the track when you feel like the KIND OF THE WORLD while sometimes its crashing down so hard that you feel that everything achieved is just going past you. Its never ever going to be a stable boat ride in the lake but will be journey in the sea. One which is filled with slowly, relaxing and calm water whereas the other side is filled with splashing and roaring water.
Its all about how you take it to be.
A person suffering with a deadly disease named quadriplegia can also lead a normal and happy life. Leaving behind all the problems, all the difficulties and all the soar thoughts and flying high,running furiously and swimming deep. All because of his mental set-up.
Such physically crippled ,but mentally fertile, people can make each one of us learn innumerable things about life.

                                                        

   

All is up here..
You got me right.




Mind!!!

Mental Virginity-Need of The Hour(Part-3)

Guy- You are looking cute.

Girl(smiling)- Thank you..

(Talking to herself- What did he see in me that made me look cute to him? Am I looking weird or is he just trying to impress me? Is he trying to hit on me? Is he looking at me or just at my ...........?

What is actually going on in his mind? These guys are always interested in physical aspects...

Cheepoo..)

Such is our GIRL SOCIETY!!
Instead of feeling happy that she just earned a vote of compliment, she is worried that what did he actually notice.
Now just think friends-

                                              Who needs mental virginity this time??

                  

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Sometimes you confront such events which make you think that do I actually having some wrong intentions. Am I actually a bad guy.

Few days back, I faced a similar situation. A friend told me that one of my colleagues thought that I am trying to hit on her, and surprisingly this happened when I was just trying to be friendly with her.

I was so shocked by this revelation that I actually wanted to just approach her and ask that why did she felt so. All types of absurd questions about my personality started rising up in my mind. I was completely dumbstruck for some time. I even asked a very close friend that do I have some serious issues?
Only when she assured me on this, I felt better.
Phewwww...
Girls!!!
Just makes you go topsy-turvy.

You might think that why was I bloody disturbed? After all, its not that a big deal.

But

For me, it was!!

She is my co worker and due to her abstract thought process, I had to suffer for one entire month. She always acted in an ill mannered way with me. Irrespective of my level of input, she always said to me that I don't do anything. It became so irritating that every part of me suffered. Every sphere of the life got its share of this burden and my overall performance saw a big dip.

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I was travelling in the metro and was thinking about my behavior. My self introspection paused as I played some music on my phone. A popular song, "Saada Haq" diverted the focus of my mind.

Fever of this rock music changed the course of things. The anger, tension and every other thought reached its peak and the volcano erupted in the form of sweat profusion. 

That helped me a lot as i got rid of extra pressure. As soon as I got my focal length adjusted, my mind started working and recovered from the sedation. I thought every instance and re-evaluated it.

"Rohini East. Doors will open on the left. Please mind the gap"

Metro announcement lowered my body temperature and my CPU got some rest.

Now my Crazzzzzzy Rupish was out of the cage.

My mind started popping some cool (for me), crazy (for others) and bugging(for her) thoughts.

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Thing to think is that is it only the mental narrowness of agnatic society or is it just a pseudo presumption of effiminate people?

I guess the need of the hour is to open this narrowness irrespective of the sex.
Time to think some more...

P.S- One of my crazy thoughts was to write this blog and post it on her FB account...

Who is this "Mr. God"?

In my last blog, I expressed my whole "Mind at the Next Level Theory" and in the end,I mentioned that this situation helped me to re-connect with my God.
But before I express my views on this complex and very sensitive topic , I want all my readers to ask a few questions from your inner self.

• Do you believe in God?
• If yes/no, what made you take that decision?
• If Yes, then how can you believe in something that can't be seen?
• If No, then just think of the first words that come out of your mouth when you see something terrible? (Are they something like,"Oh Jesus" or "Holy Christ"?)

 In my early life( I just 19, but even I had an "early life" :-P ), I was an orthodox believer of God. In everything good, I used to credit God's presence and in everything bad, I used to think that maybe god has something better hidden in his chest for me.
I clearly remember an incident which made my belief more concrete.
About 2 years back, I was preparing for medicine. One day, I lost a very important note book. It had all my notes and important questions. I was very tensed. My mum checked every possible and impossible place. But everything was in vein. 2-3 days passed but every effort was futile. Next morning, while I was on my way to school, I passed by my society temple. I prayed to god that please turn the impossible task into possible. Believe me or not but when I returned from my school, I saw the register lying over the bed.
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Time passed and my exam time arrived. I was well prepared for medical exam. Two years of my end less efforts were to be tested in the next 3 hours. I was apprehensive about the exam but on the same side I was raring  to give my best shot. Luckily or unluckily,everything went good for me.

Result time was near. I was very anxious to see that where my future is destined. But fortunately or unfortunately, I lost everything in that battle.
All my dreams shattered and so did my belief in god.
" When you lose something big, you lose many big things in a go"

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PRESENT DAY/AFTER TWO YEARS
Yesterday's incident created a different atmosphere around me. It made me feel that whatever we have, whatever we do and whatever happens, everything is connected with each other.
If I would have got an admission in medico, I may have been leading a terrible life. A life where my actual self could have died long ago.
But today, I live a healthy and most importantly a HAPPY LIFE. I do whatever I feel like doing. Multiple things like Guitar, Dance, Karate, Day out with friends etc have returned to my life. I left all these things to get into a medical college. I changed myself. Now I feel more confident, more lively and more happy. And I guess, this is what actually life is.
"Live every moment like its your last moment alive"



Definition of God has changed in my dictionary. Earlier, I searched god in some idol or some prayer. But now, I found out that
God is in every person, in everything.
I strongly feel that there is some super natural force, that is circulating the positive energy all around us.
Don't you think that the negative energy is way more than the positive energy in the people around? Then from where do we get the
HOPE TO LIVE IN EVERY ODD SITUATION!!!
Time to think some more....

Source- Pratishtha Chaudhary

Mind- Think Some More Buddy!!!

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A Journey with Mind

Class 11th, Physics
Teachers always told us that the speed of light is 300,000,000(300 million m/s). It is the highest speed recorded so far. And according to physicists, no other object can attain speed more than the speed of light. Like any other student, I readily believed this fact.

Sometimes, I dream of driving a vehicle with a speed equal to that of the complex number written above(tough to write it again and again!!!). I know it's next to impossible, but my life took an unexpected turn yesterday. I got a chance to enjoy the ride at a speed definitely above 300 million m/s.
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I had a mock CAT exam yesterday and due to recent change in the pattern of CAT exam, it was an online exam. I was pretty sure that I would be able to get through this mock but things went on a different track. To understand that, I will take you to my past.

Story till now...
Earlier, I tried to enter the field of medicine. But my coin didn't work there. Later, I tried to link my personality with the lifestyle of a doc. I understood that I was about to commit a big mistake, which I averted due to my luck(maybe). I tried to find out the correct career for me and the quest came to an end after my sister introduced me with the field named "MBA".

Now
I was all set to take the exam. But as soon as I sat in front of the computer screen,everything went blank. I traveled hundreds of days back and saw myself sitting in front of another computer screen, giving my medico exam. Suddenly, all my body parts turned numb. I was like, facing an anaphylactic shock.

Everything changed, from my surroundings to my inner self. I traveled two years back in time just in a fraction of seconds. It took me 70 minutes(half of my exam time) to come out of that shock like condition.
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This incident changed the monotonous course of my life and added a ting of oregano to it. Laws of physics failed yesterday. Everything was in a different level of this existing world. And when I tried to recapitulate my experience, I felt something ineffable . It was like a block hole, pulling me in. At the same time, it also acted like a magnet, pushing me away. I had never experienced such an enormous power of this "mind" before.It forced me to think that what will 300 million m/s do in front of the power of one's brain!!!

Even psychologists define it as "science without any definition". Every mind works differently, thinks differently and responds differently.
Mind is like a human being in it self. Or should I say, its the only thing that makes us "human".
Finally, I rode a vehicle named MIND with a speed more than that of light. And believe me, its amazing as well as horrifying.

AMAZIFYING(amazing+horrifying)
:P

This experience even re-established my belief in god.
We will find about it later.
Till then, hold your suspense....

To find out, move ahead my friend
REVEAL THE MYSTERY!!