When I see myself in you

Just walked down to my washroom and looked into the mirror. They say that a mirror shows you who you are and what you are. It is said to show you the real "you".

But today when I walked in front of the mirror, I didn't see me. I gazed on that image I saw in front of me. It was of a twenty-twenty two years old guy with untrimmed beard, threadbare spectacles, tensed face trying to find out answers to many unsolved questions in mind. I kept looking and saw an image of another person in the glasses of those worn out spectacles. That guy was even more shabbily dressed and tensed than the former. But what surprised me was that within that image I saw another image of a person in the pupil of the eyes. This guy seemed to be dejected by the world, unaided, isolated and deserted from anyone around.

Suddenly, I just lost my focussed approach which was treading down the image line. I stepped back and touched myself. I realised I was none of those guys. I had a smile on my face, cool beard look and up-to-date spectacles to match my personality.

Then who were those guys?

From where did all of them approach in my image?

What did it signify?

Was it actually that? No, it can't be. It was long ago. It just can't follow me till now.

Then what was it?

Am I sure it was not what I suspect it was?

Was it really because of today's incident?

Was it.............

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Pooja: "It's getting late. Let's leave soon. It will take us an hour to reach home"
Kunal: "Sure. Even I was planning to leave as soon as possible. Let me just check whether I have done all the formalities required for the day."
Pooja: "Do everything quickly."

After sometime.

Pooja: "Are you done with everything. You know how everything is. Let's leave."
Kunal: "Ya. Let's go."

They went to the car and without wasting any time Kunal got on to the driving seat and was as usual excited to drive both of them back. Kunal just enjoyed driving after a hectic day at office. While going back home, they always used to listen to music and side-by-side had a regular chit-chat sessions.
Pooja used to discuss all the office politics and "who-said-what" stuff. Kunal used to filter things out. He used to act as if he is listening to all that stuff but like a typical guy, he used to shut the doors of his cerebrum and allowed it to enjoy some fun neighbor talk with the cerebellum. But something just caught his attention. Out of nowhere, Pooja started discussing her personal life. There was a little unrest in her life and the reason behind it was a breakup with her boyfriend. He did listen to everything but while listening his mind travelled time and distance.

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Aanya: " I just can't do it. We can never be together from now on."

Kunal: " Why are you punishing me? I am sure everything will be alright one day. At least give it a genuine chance."

Aanya: "Sorry but my family will also not support it. Its not possible."

Kunal: "We have spent so much time together. It means nothing to you now?"

Aanya: "Bye."

This one episode left Kunal shattered. His self-confidence and personality went for the butcher's knife and were dead for now.He just tried to assemble the broken pieces and connect the dots to understand what went wrong.

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Her tears brought him back to senses and he looked into her watery and crystal clear eyes. He was shocked to see himself in her eyes, depressed and lying alone on the ground, his eyes opened wide and hands trembling. Before he realised, he was gasping for fresh air and sweating in a well air conditioned car. He looked at her again and this time, he just saw the pain in her eyes so hugged her tight.

After sometime, she soothed down and was feeling better. But his mind was stuck behind. He was thinking again and again that why did he see himself in her eyes. He has got nothing to do with her boyfriend, her relationship or her breakup but he just felt connected as if he was involved in all this. It was like he was going through a breakup again. He could feel that pain and started directing his emotions in a very controlled and constructive manner in order to put her back and keep her moving.

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In life, sometimes you get a chance to see yourself in others. At times, you can just feel what others might be feeling. These are the desperate times when you just want to take things in your hand and make them move as per your command. These are the times when you feel that you know the situation, you know the loopholes, you know the potholes and you can just drive the other person away from this mess. It becomes frustrating to see the other person still doing what you think would be wrong to do in such a situation.

You try to pull him/her back, shout at her/him or if you are really connected with him/her that you will even try to just come in between the path. But what you forget is that you learnt the right way only after falling down again and again. You know what is right today only because you had enough trouble getting out of the pit you were digging unknowingly for yourself. And few things can only be learnt if you learn them on your own, without any external help. For example, when a butterfly comes out of its cocoon, it is said to be a very painful experience for the butterfly. But without that experience, butterfly will fail to live a healthy life ahead. In a very similar way, some life experiences are important to be learnt on your own. No matter how many times a person tells you what is right and what is not right for you, you need to fall down, get hurt and learn to get up and keep walking.

That's Life dude!!

Wrong Place,Wrong Time!!

Every day brings something new and different with it. On some fine morning, we just wake up and feel

"Yes man!! Today is my day"

We feel the music beats according to our steps,every melody turns into rock and hip-hop and we just banish all barriers.

But some day, tables turn upside down. Nothing rhymes with our words, lines turn zig-zag and everything goes topsy-turvy.

But few days stand out of this "usually line". They are the mixture of energy and events or EVENERGY (another awesome made up word :P)

We feel the grooves but are unable to move,feel the energy but there is no asynergy. It just gets used up to prevent ourselves from some locking and popping of this life.

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Today was one of such rare occasions when I had an evenergystic day(still sounds awesome :P).
Woke up with sweet sound of rain water kissing my window pane. I felt as if this day would bring something memorable in my life and actually, it did. I was all set to enjoy the weekend.

First event came up when I was trimming my beard. It is the worst half an hour of my entire week. But today, god was all set with his share of popcorn.

POWER CUT!!!

And my trimmer is not having any battery back up. I had to hide myself for almost an hour. My half trimmed mustache could have never ever looked better than this.

Somehow, I got rid of this and unaware of the plan of the nature,I went out of my place. As soon as I stepped out of my society, some spoilt brat gave me a free mud-bath.

Ya!!
Mud-Bath..

Not that herbal one. The one in which you are walking like a cool dude on the road and someone drives his car as if he is on an F1racing track and crosses the puddle when you are adjacent to it.

I guess now you all must have got it..

Don't laugh man!!

:P

I went back home and took a bath again.
Now, I decided to stay at my place for the entire evening. But on such days, even home is not sweet enough. I slipped twice and ran into door and bed.
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My mind got puzzled and I started to think that even after such an energetic start,why everything is happening wrong with me. The answer stuck my stuck mind after half an hour
WRONG PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME!!

Its just like this sparrow
One is beautifully carved and anyone with big fat bank balance, will pay whatever the label says just to decorate it in their mansion.

The other one is of an actual bird. Sitting near the city dump-yard and no one will even give one good look to it once.
Living animal is having no value but its curved show piece maybe sold even in millions.
Reason....


The topic says it all

If I knew Then Whatever I Know Now

From a long time, I was cogitating of something good to write on. Every night, I sat in front of my laptop and ended up watching some sitcom or movie. But today something weird happened.

Though it gave me an idea to write on or Should I say a Question to think upon. But thinking about that topic made me come to see every color on my face. Initially I felt quiet low, then better, much better and finally the best. Now I am brimming with thoughts and energy.
Life is so interesting guys, it just throws new situations on you at any moment. Not wasting any time, let’s start off with the situation (the one I faced today).
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Today, I switched on my laptop and saw an old friend's name on a social networking site. She made me think of the last time we conversed. It was not a healthy discussion. Confusion lead to altercation.
We fought and then she stopped talking to me. With time, I moved on and forgot her completely until today afternoon. I messaged her admitting my mistakes and apologized for them. But she started off with the mess again. I wasn't in a state to take more so I just told her that I am sorry for my second approach to improve our relation.
After that moment of rage and anger passed, I felt little depressed. But this girl provided me with a game that made the energy spurt into my body again from its reserves. I call that game as:-

                                                    If I Knew Then Whatever I Know Now

When we look back at our mistakes, we cry or laugh or a bit of both of them. But what would you have done if you knew that how things will sprout up in the future? Would you have quit your job before? Would have married your husband or wife? Would you have returned to your country before it was too late?

Now, its to time think guys. All the things that you rued upon, things you want to edit or even remove from your past.
What would you have done if I would have given you a time machine??

When I see back, I feel that sometimes I never thought that I am committing such a big blunder. I didn't have any idea that what I am doing or saying today can hurt someone or me back. Rarely, things are different from my side but the end result kept itself pretty same. I made my end clear but the other side changed its usual course. Things went topsy-tervy in both the cases. Sometimes in life you know that what you are about to do can be a mistake but you are never certain that it is a mistake. The only way to find if it’s a mistake is to make the mistake and look back and say that “Yep!! It was a mistake”. One should commit such mistakes to know and learn more about mistakes (even I think I have committed some mistakes in this sentence :P).  Sometimes, you think of doing good but it goes the wrong way. Saying what you exactly feel (at the wrong time) is also a mistake. Some mistakes gives us experience while some ruin a part of our life. Some become precious moments in life while some may turn the air blue.

Playing this game and looking back at all the mistakes made me learn few important things. Mistakes are important part of one’s life. They teach us or test us. They are meant to be fought with courage and patience. They are like a barometer of our life which indicates that how much we evolved with time.

A person experiences different events in his life. Everyone goes through thick and thin. Some are worse, some are great and some are encouraging while some shatter your confidence. But how can one find out if he evolved after going through all this or regressed back?

 Mistakes are the right pick to find this out friends. Think about them again. Construct a whole situation again, keeping in mind the things faced by the other side due to you, inference, path taken to reach the outcome. After this, you will come to know about your current level. Your take on that situation will change if you have evolved or regressed. BE HONEST TO YOURSELF and your answer will lie somewhere in your mind.

“What life has taught and made me till now?”

Try to find out the answer.

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After following what I said (for the fight I mentioned before), I thought

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She deserved it and I rocked it!!!
:P

P.S- I called her up. Listened to her feelings and now everything is back on track.

Friendship-Matter of Time or Feelings

Few days back, I met an old friend of mine. We had a normal chit chat about every day life and then we moved in different directions. As my steps were moving forward, my memory started moving backwards. Many nostalgic memories started popping in my mind.
We were like best buddies during school life. People use to call us Laurel and Hardy. Sometimes, they even asked that "Are you both brothers?"
Earlier we used to say a no but with time it changed into yes. I still remember, by mistake I wrote his number instead of mine and even he did same in a form.
But time changed everything.
During 11th and 12th standard, we choose different streams and drifted apart. Number of encounters decreased and so did the phone calls. Somehow, 2years of separation ended and we again gained contact. We started living two lives. One was college life and other was reprise school life.

 Happiness and sadness are two sides of a coin. Coin flipped and sadness came upside.
One fight changed our paths.
Both us didn't talk due to our so called "ego". And everything changed.
This incident made me ask some questions to myself

• Is friendship possible only when you guys have a regular contact?
• Can one change, bring big changes in your life?
• Are relationships easy to forget and move ahead?

 No doubt, friendship is enriched with nutrients like regular contact, knowing each other better, trust etc. Every one loves when you get to spend free time with a friend and if lucky then with your best friend. But when we talk about strong bonding and long term friendship then I think regular meetings can be removed from the list.
Life makes you learn many things. It made me learn this secret of friendship in course of life.
Luckily, I have got another jewel or friend in my life. We guys are also very much attached and love spending free time daily with each other. This time again sadness won and responsibilities was the weapon. When I realised that he is feeling same as I felt for my old friend, a golden rule of life struck my head.
TIME YOU SPEND TOGETHER IS NEVER JUDGEMENTAL IF FEELINGS REMAIN UNALTERED.

But the game doesn't end here. Last clause is most important. Feelings are like a connection between two people. It can change the world around you.
Those who can't understand your problem and blame you for it should be made to see the past when you did everything as per their choice. In today's fast world, friendship is used as a stair by some. People put their weight on you and move ahead.
So,remember friends
Stick to those who want to stick to you,what so ever the conditions are.