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Monday 1 October 2012

Unfinished...


Sometimes life leaves some stories without a full stop. No matter, how much you try, you can never place that "Dot" after the chapter.
Maybe a person can forget such chapters but a for a guy like me, its next to impossible. And the next  means away from possible not before impossible.
Today I am happy that I completed one of such chapters which had the potential to haunt me through out my life. But the reason I still remember is that I am not satisfied.
Even after I placed the FULL STOP after this chapter, it will always remain
UNFINISHED

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Today one of our respected Ecology teachers called us for an extra class to the college.
I struggled to reach to the college gate at 9:10 but the class had to commence at 9am. Maybe 10minutes is not that a big deal for us but for our respected Ecology teacher, it was like I refused to answer a question, which was again like I was predicting that Pakistan will win against India in a cricket match. I guess now people can infer the seriousness of being punctual in his class.

My breath was heavy and body was profusely sweating. As I reached near the class, I saw everyone having a gala time in the canteen. This indication was enough for me to take a deep breath of relief. It was like a goat which was about to get butchered survived as the sword went past its neck but didn't hurt it at all.
I went and had a great laughter session with all my batch mates. At 9:20, the sir was here.
We all quietly and quickly settled in the class.
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Sometimes, you try hard, harder and hardest to solve the puzzle. But when you put all the available blocks in a sync, you see that one block is missing.
Even after putting this much effort, the puzzle will always remain unfinished.

Some chapters of one's life are like this unsolved puzzle. You get everything in place but the god just don't want you to complete this chapter. This page will always remain turned in your book.
                                                
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Sir started with the lecture on Ecology.
I must say, he is a great teacher. The way he explains everything, using numerous examples, is just extra ordinary. He tries very hard that the concept is clear in every mind. He is little strict but that is compensated with his teaching standards
But today my mind was flying out of this prison.
Of course this was a prison.
No matter how good he is, coming to the college when its a holiday is nothing better than going for a picnic and on the way tire gets punctured. We all were sitting as if we are beaten and made to sit in the class.
My mind was flying high but suddenly our teacher switched on the vacuum cleaner and I found myself inside its stomach.
"Hey you!! Where are you today?"
These words brought me out of the wonder land.
Crap!!
I never get that luck card. Caught again...
             
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Today I was busy thinking about an unfinished story of my life.
Exactly two years in past, I was working hard to get a seat in the medical college at this time. I left my college, leisure, sleep and entertainment to find my self wearing that DOCTOR'S COAT.
But this chapter never got its "DOT".
I tried twice but never landed up in a college that can make a MBBS doctor. The reason that I mentioned MBBS is that I got a seat in the best BDS college of India but left it to fulfill my dream.
I gave it a second shot thinking that I would regret that Why I never gave my dream another shot. Today I am happy that I tried again, unlike many of friends who regret this. But I am not satisfied.
No matter how much I try to end this thing, it would always be a loose end. This story would ways be
Unfinished.
Its not always the death which leave things unfinished. Most of the times its just too difficult, too expensive and too scary. Its only when once you stop, you realize how hard it is to start again, how hard it is to start something new again. so you force yourself not to want it but it is always there and until you finish it, it will always be .............















P.S- With time I got some closure too.