Life- Changing Definition of its own

Is life really that an easy task to survive as described in books and even in my previous blogs?
This is the question in my mind that I want to answer myself. I dont know that how am I going to find out about this and whether in the end i will reach to some conclusion or not. But one thing is for sure, I will learn a lot while assembling my thoughts.

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DREAMS BREAK IN THIS GAME

Life is like a game with just two outcomes for ever turn. One is you will succeed and other one is quiet obvious choice,you will lose everything.

Every big turn in life involves great risks. Putting in the terms of economic, big profits involves big risks. If a person dreams to achieve big things in life, he/she needs to risk a whole lot of things for that.

Risks may look good and interesting in movies and add commercials. But in actual life they are usually not accompanied with a bright ending. Movie names "Pursuit of Happiness", makes everyone learn two things about life

1) Life would be very harsh and nothing can be achieved without giving yourself unbearable mental pain. Those who will somehow get along, will be termed as WINNERS and those who will fall anywhere in between, will be forgotten in the crowd.

2) Hard work will pay back in future. Sooner or later, one will achieve the feat. Hope of achieving something big always keeps a person on. It gives you strength to fight back but with the risk of taking away everything if you will take it as an extra load  over your shoulders.

SPEND NIGHTS DOUBTING YOUR CALIBER

During the journey of life, one will experience hundreds of sleepless nights. Hundreds of nights when you will scratch your head hard but wont get any jini to ask for your wish and grant it easily. Most these sleepless nights would revolve around a QUESTION MARK.

A simple sign of English language that is used to indicate ambiguity about something. This sign would put a big label of "Whats Next". Its not at all easy to slip away these nights because the empty cup of the following morning is already filled up to the brim by the cup of fighting and conflicting thoughts.

But is it really a case of concern?

Would the life be really as exciting and adventurous as it is for a fighter who is about to fight with an unknown opponent?

For me, all this is really something that keeps the heat level up. But even I hate it when it gets on to my nerves. Even I feel that it is not easy when you are on the lower side of the coin and no one can see you.

So, are these sleepless nights really worth?

I guess I need to think some more....

LOOSING THE NEAR AND DEAR ONES

Separation can take different meanings during different situations.

Sometimes separation is between two people due to some underline dispute whereas sometimes due to final and inescapable route.

Both of these break a person from within,especially the second one. Everyone has experienced and no one wants to experience it further. Still, everyone has to keep fighting with this as its not under one's will. Its by god's choice. No one can undo this loss. 

But the undeniable fact is that its is the rule of this game. One day you will win the game whatsoever you do to bring innumerable losses on your end. On one fine day, people will say that now he/she will REST IN PEACE.

Because tensions and struggle has ended.

I may sound little insane while I say all this but truth is inevitable. And maybe ineffable for me to explain it.

But that's the way every story is destined to end. No story can just keep on going on and on.

When I read the second chit out of the this box, it is labeled as "dispute". Seems to be a lighter thing to discuss than the previous topic but it holds such knots that can't be loosen up easily.

When two people are saying north and south pole, they end up with a fight. It may involve any two people, sharing any bond with each other.

Today, I experienced one with my one of the best friends. It turned ugly and in the end we decided to stop crossing each other's path.

But it left me with a loose end.

Friends matter so much in ones life especially when you start sharing your personal stuff with them. Sometimes you fight, you tease, you laugh and then hug. Whatever happens in life, a friend is always there saying

Bro, I am still here. I will never let you walk alone.

But what when he/she, leaves you and decides to walk away?

Who should be blamed, friend or you?

SOMETIMES INTROSPECTION LEAVES YOU FEELING GREY

When you look back and see that what all happened through out, life never seems to be a clean and easy journey. It never looks that you have reached at this destination very easily. Difficulties and problems are the two main ideas that pop up into ones mind and changes the conditions of phase. Instead of using 17, a person over burdens face muscles by using 43.
It always seems like a fight in which you have suffered bruises all over the body. You are like Leonidas with not even 299 more with you, fighting against the enormous army of Xerses. All alone out there.
All this never feels right, at least not the way you planed it to be. Its like a mosquito who is sucking life out of you and giving you a slow and painful end.


Maybe many of you will feel that my earlier philosophies about the life were like a "Wonderland journey". And now I am onto something practical.

Everyone goes through a tough phase. Everyone has to shed tears on the loss of someone close or on an ineluctable defeat of your dream.These tough phases may break great wall of China and even great wall of India(used for Indian cricketer Rahul Dravid). What I mean is that handling stress of loosing something big, of putting someone else on the danger side and of getting nothing out of everything is scary. Everyone feels scared not to win.
Legends like Sachin Tendulkar, Mike Tyson, Dhyan Chand, Michael Jackson and so on and so forth have faced such chills going down their spine. Sachin also has sleepless nights when he underwent a surgery for tennis elbow and was unable to even lift a cricket bat. Michael Jackson also had fear to keep performing up to that "near perfection level".

Life is always changing definitions. Its always taking different turns and round abouts on the roller coaster. Sometimes its on the highest point of the track when you feel like the KIND OF THE WORLD while sometimes its crashing down so hard that you feel that everything achieved is just going past you. Its never ever going to be a stable boat ride in the lake but will be journey in the sea. One which is filled with slowly, relaxing and calm water whereas the other side is filled with splashing and roaring water.
Its all about how you take it to be.
A person suffering with a deadly disease named quadriplegia can also lead a normal and happy life. Leaving behind all the problems, all the difficulties and all the soar thoughts and flying high,running furiously and swimming deep. All because of his mental set-up.
Such physically crippled ,but mentally fertile, people can make each one of us learn innumerable things about life.

                                                        

   

All is up here..
You got me right.




Mind!!!

Unfinished...

Sometimes life leaves some stories without a full stop. No matter, how much you try, you can never place that "Dot" after the chapter.

Maybe a person can forget such chapters but a for a guy like me, its next to impossible. And the next  means away from possible not before impossible.

Today I am happy that I completed one of such chapters which had the potential to haunt me through out my life. But the reason I still remember is that I am not satisfied.

Even after I placed the FULL STOP after this chapter, it will always remain

UNFINISHED

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Today one of our respected Ecology teachers called us for an extra class to the college.

I struggled to reach to the college gate at 9:10 but the class had to commence at 9am. Maybe 10minutes is not that a big deal for us but for our respected Ecology teacher, it was like I refused to answer a question, which was again like I was predicting that Pakistan will win against India in a cricket match. I guess now people can infer the seriousness of being punctual in his class.

My breath was heavy and body was profusely sweating. As I reached near the class, I saw everyone having a gala time in the canteen. This indication was enough for me to take a deep breath of relief. It was like a goat which was about to get butchered survived as the sword went past its neck but didn't hurt it at all.

I went and had a great laughter session with all my batch mates. At 9:20, the sir was here.

We all quietly and quickly settled in the class.

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Sometimes, you try hard, harder and hardest to solve the puzzle. But when you put all the available blocks in a sync, you see that one block is missing.

Even after putting this much effort, the puzzle will always remain unfinished.

Some chapters of one's life are like this unsolved puzzle. You get everything in place but the god just don't want you to complete this chapter. This page will always remain turned in your book.

                                                

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Sir started with the lecture on Ecology.

I must say, he is a great teacher. The way he explains everything, using numerous examples, is just extra ordinary. He tries very hard that the concept is clear in every mind. He is little strict but that is compensated with his teaching standards

But today my mind was flying out of this prison.

Of course this was a prison.

No matter how good he is, coming to the college when its a holiday is nothing better than going for a picnic and on the way tire gets punctured. We all were sitting as if we are beaten and made to sit in the class.

My mind was flying high but suddenly our teacher switched on the vacuum cleaner and I found myself inside its stomach.

"Hey you!! Where are you today?"
These words brought me out of the wonder land.

Crap!!

I never get that luck card. Caught again...

             

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Today I was busy thinking about an unfinished story of my life.

Exactly two years in past, I was working hard to get a seat in the medical college at this time. I left my college, leisure, sleep and entertainment to find my self wearing that DOCTOR'S COAT.

But this chapter never got its "DOT".

I tried twice but never landed up in a college that can make a MBBS doctor. The reason that I mentioned MBBS is that I got a seat in the best BDS college of India but left it to fulfill my dream.

I gave it a second shot thinking that I would regret that Why I never gave my dream another shot. Today I am happy that I tried again, unlike many of friends who regret this. But I am not satisfied.

No matter how much I try to end this thing, it would always be a loose end. This story would ways be

Unfinished.

Its not always the death which leave things unfinished. Most of the times its just too difficult, too expensive and too scary. Its only when once you stop, you realize how hard it is to start again, how hard it is to start something new again. so you force yourself not to want it but it is always there and until you finish it, it will always be .............

P.S- With time I got some closure too.                     

Mental Virginity-Need of The Hour(Part-3)

Guy- You are looking cute.

Girl(smiling)- Thank you..

(Talking to herself- What did he see in me that made me look cute to him? Am I looking weird or is he just trying to impress me? Is he trying to hit on me? Is he looking at me or just at my ...........?

What is actually going on in his mind? These guys are always interested in physical aspects...

Cheepoo..)

Such is our GIRL SOCIETY!!
Instead of feeling happy that she just earned a vote of compliment, she is worried that what did he actually notice.
Now just think friends-

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Sometimes you confront such events which make you think that do I actually having some wrong intentions. Am I actually a bad guy.

Few days back, I faced a similar situation. A friend told me that one of my colleagues thought that I am trying to hit on her, and surprisingly this happened when I was just trying to be friendly with her.

I was so shocked by this revelation that I actually wanted to just approach her and ask that why did she felt so. All types of absurd questions about my personality started rising up in my mind. I was completely dumbstruck for some time. I even asked a very close friend that do I have some serious issues?
Only when she assured me on this, I felt better.
Phewwww...
Girls!!!
Just makes you go topsy-turvy.

You might think that why was I bloody disturbed? After all, its not that a big deal.

But

For me, it was!!

She is my co worker and due to her abstract thought process, I had to suffer for one entire month. She always acted in an ill mannered way with me. Irrespective of my level of input, she always said to me that I don't do anything. It became so irritating that every part of me suffered. Every sphere of the life got its share of this burden and my overall performance saw a big dip.

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I was travelling in the metro and was thinking about my behavior. My self introspection paused as I played some music on my phone. A popular song, "Saada Haq" diverted the focus of my mind.

Fever of this rock music changed the course of things. The anger, tension and every other thought reached its peak and the volcano erupted in the form of sweat profusion. 

That helped me a lot as i got rid of extra pressure. As soon as I got my focal length adjusted, my mind started working and recovered from the sedation. I thought every instance and re-evaluated it.

"Rohini East. Doors will open on the left. Please mind the gap"

Metro announcement lowered my body temperature and my CPU got some rest.

Now my Crazzzzzzy Rupish was out of the cage.

My mind started popping some cool (for me), crazy (for others) and bugging(for her) thoughts.

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Thing to think is that is it only the mental narrowness of agnatic society or is it just a pseudo presumption of effiminate people?

I guess the need of the hour is to open this narrowness irrespective of the sex.
Time to think some more...

P.S- One of my crazy thoughts was to write this blog and post it on her FB account...

Will You Sell Your Ferrari?

I am sorry folks.

I am sorry that my mind always comes up with so weird and funny things which are incomparable. Sometimes, I share my happiness, sometimes my sadness. Sometimes my doubts while sometimes my weird imagination.

This time I crossed all my previous set records on CRAZY-WEIRD SCALE(sounds awesome).

I began with a survey in my area. My question was very simple and answer was even simpler. But I don't know that why people were acting altruistic in the first go. Only 13% of the total, accepted this simple answer in their first go.

Another 70% joined hands with this option as and when I asked them few more question.

In all, 83% population agreed with this option. (I know that rest would have also joined this side but we need to keep few on the other side of the balance to show it as a "neutral" senses report).

My question was as simple as this-

"What is your final goal in life?"

Let me ask this question to all of you.

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Just Think for some more time guys. The more you think, the more extraordinary and amusing answer will pop up in your mind.

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Done??

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For those who are still thinking, please think harder and then we will see that what you actually want from life, as I am sure you are off track by now.

My First Survey report is here-

53% =To be a better person

22% =To be with my family/girl friend/ loved ones

13% =To earn Money

5% =Do something for my country

7% = Can't mention,these people crossed all barriers

Now, you guys can fit your answer into any of these categories.

Think again guys...

Maybe, you will also shift to that "13% category". If not then I respect your firm mind set up. Keep it intact till the end of this blog else I wont let you go away my friend. You will be trapped in my chakravyu(trap).

The reason why 53% of the people say that their actual goal in life is to be a better person is something related to our upbringing.

Since our childhood, we are taught that the Bad guy always loses the fight against the Good guy. No one wants to lose in their life. So, our mind set tends to get inclined towards this side.

So, when I ask that what you want from life, people choose this option readily.

22% choose the 2nd option. Reason is as simple as this that everyone is attached to the people who are with you through out your ups and downs.

5% choose country due to their patriotic feeling which was pounding furiously and was trying to come out in the form of this answer.

Rest were full of random thoughts.

I even got answers like Bus conductor, Driver, Sweeper etc( I didn't mention the age of the audience).

My next question which changed the mind set of 50% of the audience was-

"Will you sell a Ferrari to achieve what you said before?"

This question was like an attrition to the firmness of their decision.

Most of them replied,"What's the need? I will do it even if I own the Ferrari"

People just veered their direction as soon as their minds bumped up with the thought of selling a Ferrari. They tried to reckon through the set rules and finally swerved away their path.

Reason is as clear as my answer sheets.

People always have inevitable desire to earn money and get luxury. I am not saying that they don't want what they choose in the first place. But what I am saying is that they always want that this thought should supplement money.

Without Benjamin Franklin, no one can lead a happy life.

The extend of the urge to earn more may differ from person to person, but no one can live without this Ferrari.

After all, FERRARI IS WORTH DYING MAN!!

Wrong Place,Wrong Time!!

Every day brings something new and different with it. On some fine morning, we just wake up and feel

"Yes man!! Today is my day"

We feel the music beats according to our steps,every melody turns into rock and hip-hop and we just banish all barriers.

But some day, tables turn upside down. Nothing rhymes with our words, lines turn zig-zag and everything goes topsy-turvy.

But few days stand out of this "usually line". They are the mixture of energy and events or EVENERGY (another awesome made up word :P)

We feel the grooves but are unable to move,feel the energy but there is no asynergy. It just gets used up to prevent ourselves from some locking and popping of this life.

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Today was one of such rare occasions when I had an evenergystic day(still sounds awesome :P).
Woke up with sweet sound of rain water kissing my window pane. I felt as if this day would bring something memorable in my life and actually, it did. I was all set to enjoy the weekend.

First event came up when I was trimming my beard. It is the worst half an hour of my entire week. But today, god was all set with his share of popcorn.

POWER CUT!!!

And my trimmer is not having any battery back up. I had to hide myself for almost an hour. My half trimmed mustache could have never ever looked better than this.

Somehow, I got rid of this and unaware of the plan of the nature,I went out of my place. As soon as I stepped out of my society, some spoilt brat gave me a free mud-bath.

Ya!!
Mud-Bath..

Not that herbal one. The one in which you are walking like a cool dude on the road and someone drives his car as if he is on an F1racing track and crosses the puddle when you are adjacent to it.

I guess now you all must have got it..

Don't laugh man!!

:P

I went back home and took a bath again.
Now, I decided to stay at my place for the entire evening. But on such days, even home is not sweet enough. I slipped twice and ran into door and bed.
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My mind got puzzled and I started to think that even after such an energetic start,why everything is happening wrong with me. The answer stuck my stuck mind after half an hour
WRONG PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME!!

Its just like this sparrow
One is beautifully carved and anyone with big fat bank balance, will pay whatever the label says just to decorate it in their mansion.

The other one is of an actual bird. Sitting near the city dump-yard and no one will even give one good look to it once.
Living animal is having no value but its curved show piece maybe sold even in millions.
Reason....


The topic says it all

Mental Virginity- Need of The Hour(Part-2)

Weekend!!
That part of the week when one gets chance to do what all he/she was planning to do since last 5 days.

From last 2-3 months, my schedule is jam packed with various duties and tasks to be performed in time. So, I get some free time just during the weekend and I enjoy it to the utmost level.

After an over burdened week, I finally managed to see the sunrise of Saturday (I know it sounds as if I am a soldier and is engaged in some battle or so, but believe me friends, last week was nothing less than a battle). I woke up late, kept roaming in the house frivolously and kept groping for the newspaper in the house. I enjoyed doing everything in ultra-slow motion.  :-P

After the sunny day passed, I went out with a friend to make my weekend as well as this evening more enjoyable. We ate at food joint and enjoyed some good music.  As and when I came back to my place, I switched on my laptop and opened a famous site to download some rocking numbers. By mistake I typed the top level domain as ".com" in stead of the one used to open the site. And the search results were not at all linked with the music, at least not with the kind of music for which I was searching online.

I was startled when I saw the screen of my laptop. I closed the web page and tried to divert my mind but it was of no use.

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Few years back, one of my seniors told me some websites on which I can play some cool PC games. I was unaware of the actual side of the coin. When I reached home from my school, I switched on the PC and the router. I was all set to play some different and exciting games. After I click on "Go", I placed my self in front of the blue world for the first time. I clicked on few links to search for the games on those sites but my ears turned red as I saw pornographic pics all over the site. I was shocked to see those pics on the 12" screen and I just switched off the computer.

Later that night, my sister called me and asked me that what all am I watching on the computer these days?
I understood the direction of this conversation but I just tried to confabulate as if I don't know anything. My sister is like God to me. She catches all the thoughts in my mind very easily. To my surprise, she just hugged me and told me that what I did today is natural but unethical. I still remember the exact words she said to me.
She said

" Rupish, I am not at all angry with you. Its very much natural in this age group. But you should know that what you saw today is actually included in mythologies of many cultures. 

In Hindu Mythology, Greek Mythology, Christianity etc, nude paintings of God and Goddesses are very common.  They were never seen with the eyes of a nymphomaniac. This art was considered divine and religious.

Its just the filthy mind of humans that is polluting this world. Mental Virginity is more important than physical virginity. Never ever pollute your mind with such thoughts".

I cried in front of her and told her my story. She said me that I trust you and I know that you will never ever resort to such things.

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Suddenly, I came out of the past and gave a pat on my back. I was happy that after the first encounter with pornography, my sister caught me. Even though I was not the culprit but I am happy that I had to confront her on this issue. Maybe she trusted me, maybe not. But her words of trust and faith in me made me go past these things.

And why I patted myself was that

I NEVER EVER LOOKED BACK.

P.S- Later, I re-opened the explorer and deleted the history. Because if this time I was caught, she would have killed me..
:P

Mental Virginity- Need of the Hour

 Yesterday, I was going back to my home after an exhausting and overloaded day. Connaught Place is the hub of Delhi and the metro trains are packed at the peak hours from its station. Somehow, after struggling with my muscle cramps and sweat showers, I managed to get inside the metro. I was standing in the 2nd compartment i.e next to the compartment reserved for ladies. After I gulped in some water and tried to wipe sweat using my handkerchief which was already drenched in sweat, I looked around and saw many faces with different expressions.

Sometimes, it becomes so interesting to look at the numerous faces around and to try to judge that what has happened with whom. Its the best option to pass the free time when the body and mind have already opted for retirement. Suddenly, I saw a face and my eyes were unable to move and mimic anyone further.
Brown eyes, long eye lashes, maybelline adding more beauty to this limitless beauty and the shimmering smile. My eyes just glued to this pretty face. I controlled my senseless thought process and noticed that she was feeling very uncomfortable. I saw around and understood the reason, over attention.

Many males were staring at her and this was making her feel quiet out of the place. On one side, I just saw the beauty and cuteness of her face,  on the other side people went beyond that limit.
A sudden current of anger and disgust passed through me. It was the moment where I was unable to think that how can I help her out. Before I could think of any possible solution, she thought of one- shift to ladies coach.
Maybe the crowd returned to being pointless after this but my mind and body were in no situation to be like them, at least not after this.
Is this,what we call "our well socialized society"?
Is this the correct way to treat another human of opposite sex?